Journey into your depths
“I don’t know what I want”
But darling, do you know who you are?
Beyond your name, age, gender, job, marital status, likes and dislikes, acquired and largely unexamined goals and belief systems...
Do you actually know who you are in the core of your being, what moves you, what matters to you?
Do you know your purpose?
Not the purpose dictated by the tyrant in your head (aka: a mashup of internalized voices of your parents and the society you were born into); but your innate, ever unfolding purpose, which includes stages of “being”, “doing” and “becoming”, rather than endlessly “doing”.
Do you know the difference between choices that feel good in your body and enliven you; and the ones that contract your body, leave you feeling empty and disturbed for seemingly unknown reasons?
Have you been forcing your “maybe”s into “yes”s for so long that you can’t tell the difference any more?
Are your “no”s mostly there as guardians of your well formed identity or as last resort?
Regardless of whether you are in a male or a female body, do you know about your inner masculine and feminine energies? Do they get on or is one of them running the show while the other is constantly projected out onto people, sabotaging your life in the background?
If you ask the world to tell you who you are, it will. It will grade you, rank you, judge you, label you, mold you, box you and tell you who they think you are or need you to be.
And you will keep on achieving on a faulty foundation, chasing after deficiency needs trying to fill a hole in your being. Demanding the world to love you, see you, respect and feed you.
Until one day, that hole makes itself known to you loud and clear: either through a personal crisis, uncontrollable fires burning millions of acres of land and wildlife, an angry man starting war to avoid personal accountability, or simply by that sense of divine discontent that you cannot shake off even after achieving all of your goals.
When that happens, I truly hope you would get off that Maslow’s pyramid and go onto the wildest adventure of your life into the depths of your own being.
I will be cheering you on 🤸🏻
